So, things are surely beginning to fall in line. Too bad I don't really know what line they are in. I am in transition... I know this because EVERY thing is changing right before my eyes. I am watching God move and shift things. The ground I stand on seems very shaky at times, yet... I have SO much peace! I am literally standing here and I see things moving, but there is no anxiety, no worry, and no stumbling. Everything is changing, but there is no uncertainty... I feel like I am right where I am supposed to be. The bible does say that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord.
One thing that I am sure I heard God say, is to delve deeper into writing. I have been trying this writing thing for a while now. Well, I have been thinking about it for a while now. I have to be honest and say that I haven't really been motivated enough to actually write much.
Why is the first step so hard? Why are there still fears? Even after I have seen God move on my behalf, why is it such a struggle to even pursue this writing thing? The most I have done is start blogging... and I can admit that I don't even take this as serious as I should. I tell you, the enemy doesn't have to do much to discourage me from writing. All he has to do is plant a simple seed in my mind that my writing will never be noticed by anyone, and boom, my laziness and uncertainty takes over and does the rest of the work for him...
*Sigh*....
Ok, clearly if I know how the enemy operates, I should be on guard against this, right? The mature Christian would have put on her armor and fought these thoughts of discouragement off. That says a lot about me. I know these things, and yet, I let them come in.
In my defense, I will say that even though I have doubts, I am moving forward in the things of Christ. I feel a beckoning to jump into writing, so I am doing it. I am praying that my obedience to His leading will count for something. I am putting forth the effort to obey Him.... and hoping that He will bless the work of my hands. To be honest, I am not even sure of what to pray for when it comes to writing... I don't exactly know where this is headed. But as long as He gets the glory... right?
This is me... BEING... obedient.
Hello Shawanda, this post sounds a lot like me. People are constantly telling me to "write my book" and I say "I am working on it". To some extent that is true, I am writing as I study the Bible (which I LOVE to do) and I have numerous notebooks filled with notes, revelations, devotionals, etc. But I have always thought no one would want to read it. I have been allowing fear (which is not of God) to cause me to be disobedient. Thanks for sharing, this has really spoken to me and I am glad that I found your blog. Keep writing SIs, is will bless someone else as it did me. Blessings to you.
ReplyDeleteThis is awesome! You continue writing as well... I believe God will use you in a mighty way!
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