Asking God for healing in this area of my life. That ragged spirit of rejection continues to plague me... I want so badly to be rid of it. Praying for healing... and praying that I can move on.
Am I meant to be friendless? Does anyone care? This season of isolation seems like it is lasting a LIFETIME...
My old friends have forgotten about me... and my new ones, well... not even sure if we were ever friends. I have been dumped SOOO many times. The only thing that consoles me is that I know God will never leave me. Even when I feel so far away from Him, He always sends a reminder that He loves me. I am just going to throw myself into Him. Maybe He will change me into a likable person. Apparently, I am not good enough to be anyone's friend.
No matter how much I pray for God to remove people that don't need to be in my life, and bring those that do, I am still alone. No phone calls, no texts... no one to pray with. No one to laugh with...
Not sure what this lesson is, but I sure do hope I learn it soon...
